Forgotten Wonderland

It's strange to wake up to a wintry wonderland. As I type this, I'm watching the falling snowflakes in my backyard. Now, they've stopped. I guess they were just falling from the branches in the trees, and the ledges near them. I still remember the first time I saw snowflakes. I was in Ottawa walking down a long street, listening to my ipod, and the song "You" by Hillsong came on.

I remember sharing my testimony once for a three month discipleship course I took in Canada. I think I said something about the "how's" of life, aren't as important as the "why's". I guess I've forgotten that lately. I've been so busy trying to figure out things in my life, that I forgot something more important. For instance,

"The LORD is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer;..." Ps 18:2

Where is it necessary for me to apply mental exercise to understand this? If God truly is what keeps me grounded, then why do I need to have a five year plan, know which school to go to, or have a career in mind?, etc. I'm not saying that any of these things aren't useful, or that any of them aren't important, but they aren't the most important.

The reason I bring all this up is that no one planned for an ice storm here in North Texas, yet here it is. How do you know that you'll be alive in five years, or able to finish your degree before dying? How do you know if the career you're in, isn't what God has called you to? I agree with C.S. Lewis that this life is indeed the shadowlands. Everything can shift and change at any moment.

I know that my blog tends to make me sound like I'm on soapbox, so I'll finish up here. I've asked God to help me re-learn verses like,

"I am determined not to know anything among you, except Christ and Him crucified."
-I Corinthians 2:2

I take whatever ideas and notions I have for vocation, or life planning and offer it up to God. If it's God's will, it will be provided for. If it's not His will, it will not be taken care of. Worrying about all the details of life has never helped me. Spending that same amount of mental energy focusing on the Father who has sustained life since the beginning, the Author of Life, has always been good.

God help be self-disciplined, and spend more time on You than I do on myself.