Faith

I've been reading a book by Francis Chan called "Crazy Love" and a sentence just really nailed me today from chapter 7. "What are you doing right now that requires faith?" It hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that signing up for a film school nearby was not an act of faith, but reason. I reasoned to myself that surely this place with these professional teachers, and good connections could land me a job in the local entertainment industry. There's only one problem with this. Is this what God's calling me to? Or is this what I"m calling me to? I believe it's the latter.

For some reason, I just felt that I had to complete a screenplay for the children's book, "The Phantom Tollbooth". Unfortunately, Warner Bros. started working on a modern version last February, and should have the movie finished by 2013. I had so much of myself wrapped up in that story, that I thought I just had to complete it, somehow.

I've been reading about screenwriting, and it's not for the faint of heart. It's really hard. Also, the entertainment industry, even behind the scenes, is a very demanding environment. I just don't think it's for me. There are some things that are more fun to daydream about, then to actually do.

Also, there's a lot of presumption on my part. I presume that someone actually needs my advice on the music, artwork, locations, casting,etc.,

So, what happens now? I don't know. I fill out applications for employment, meet people at church and community events, and do menial housework. I get to spend time with my parents without having to fight other siblings for attention. I get to spend time with the Lord in His Word, and just enjoy worshiping Him with my guitar. When the cold weather goes away, the pool will look mighty inviting for swimming, and the jacuzzi would be nice to loosen up sore muscles in my neck.

The minute I decided to just forget the whole film thing, I felt such a wonderful peace.