Healthcare

It's really hard to pin point all that I'm feeling and thinking these days. I would've never thought that I would be looking for a job in the health care industry. If I succeed at the test I will be taking in the near future, I will become a C.N.A. (certified nurses assistant). This may sound important, but it's a very small part of all that goes on in a hospital, retirement home, psych ward, etc. I would only be handling things like blood pressure, bedpans, and such. I was explaining some of what's involved with asking to clean an elderly persons private area, and a friend of mine explained, "Man, that's got to take some guts." I said this then, and I hope I'll continue to say it in the future, "The person I'm helping is unable to help themselves. I guess I just have a lot of compassion for people." I used to think that it was wise to place all of the passion that I have into my friends, family, and also a future wife. I've learned that distribution of that love to more people is wiser, and also healthier. This job would allow me to do just that. Passion is neither my enemy, nor my best friend. Passion is the release of strength and power to do either great good, or great evil.

God help me to love others passionately. To stand my ground on some occasions, and to gently lead on other occasions. Give me the courage to console the weak, and the dying.

Even once I've passed my certification, there's re-training on location, and other uncertainties. I'm taking a step of faith into uncharted territory, and I don't really know what will happen. God does, and I'm confident He's behind me all the way, no matter what.