Selfish

That's about the look of it. I'm selfish just like most of the rest of humanity. I've found the only cure for this disease is serving others and focusing on Jesus. Iv'e been so caught up lately with looking for a job, or into education that promises a solid job that I forgot about this verse.


"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."
-Jesus

I need to insert a little "Seek the kingdom" along with looking for a job. For now, I serve my family by washing dishes occassionally, vaccumming floors, and even cleaning the bathroom at times. I've also made dinner to try to help out around the house. This seems to help keep things rolling smoothly with people coming and going. Hopefully, one day soon, I'll be one of those people trying to make it to work.

I've applied to several places, and most of them have the following reponses, "No, not hiring now," and "We'll keep your application on file." I'm starting to dread the follow up phone calls, because I'm assuming that I"ll get the same answer. Oh, well. If I keep pounding the pavement, I'm sure to make a dent somewhere.

I've still got a few places I haven't applied to yet, and there's always stuff to do that doesn't involve money. If I don't find anything soon, I may end up volunteering at Volunteer Way, which is a local place for the homeless to recieve food. I loved visiting people at the Salvation Army in Perth, and really miss a lot of folks there. If I could get paid to do something like that, that would be awesome. However, there aren't any jobs with descriptions "Will minister to others by being a solid example, that meets regularly for lunch, or other functions."

In any case, I really do feel more like my normal self that I've been for awhile. I'm on some new medication that seems to be helping me to stay awake during the day and I'm doing the best I can to take care of business.

"And hope does not disappoint, because the love of the Holy Spirit has been poured into us..." Romans 5:5

I need to stay focused on the main thing. The main thing is Jesus. He knows I want a job to pay off student loans, and take care of business. I just need to be patient and consistent. It's good to remember that patience and enduarance are pretty much the same word in the New Testament.

"Do not grow weary in well doing, for we shall reap a harvest if we faint not."
-Apostle

That's so much easier to quote, and type, than actually practice. Oh, well. That's enough rambling for one night.