Powerful

That's all I can say about today. It was powerful.

I bought a cd at the bookstore blessings, that almost made me cry.

It's called "Live: a deeper level" by Israel & Newbreed

The song is called, "You are not forgotten."

It just pierced right through to my soul.

Even reading the lyrics to it tonight without the music, made me cry.

then on top of that, I felt led to read the first chapter of I Corinthians and was totally blown away.

Ever since my heartbreak of last week, I've been beating myself up off and on.

I thought that it was incredibly stupid of me to express my feelings to her, and

weak of me to cave in to such desires.

Then I read this:
"For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength." I Cor 1:25

Now, I'm not God, but it was almost like the Holy Spirit was telling me, "You're not doing anything different than what I've made you to do."

Then I read this:
However, as it is written:
"What no eye has seen,
what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived—
these things God has prepared for those who love him" I Cor 2:9

I didn't know what to do with myself after that. Should I cry? Or shout out loud? I was floored.

By the way, I'm pretty sure that the girl in question is now a period. Let me translate that for you. It ain't gonna happen. I'm not holding my breath. In fact, I'm releasing it onto God and His Kingdom. That's what I felt like God was telling me yesterday morning.

"Will you love me, and my kingdom with as much passion as you had for this girl?"

through clenched tears, and a heart filled with pain, I said yes.

Get ready Ottawa!

You don't know what's on the loose.