Post-Surreal: Good for my heart

“Counsel in the heart of man is like deep water,
But a man of understanding will draw it out.”
-Proverbs 20:5

*Some things were not shared, b/c they're too personal in nature. The ones that I could share are below.

These are the things I believe God has been speaking directly to my heart within the past week. Why did I ever doubt that God knew what my heart was thinking, and the things it so desperately wanted to hear? Father, you are truly the only man of understanding who helps me take counsel from within.


Friday:
If anyone needs direction, let them read Psalms 119.

I read the entire chapter and the Holy Spirit gave me instruction as I heard him say that I had a heart like David's, a man after his own heart, You’re my boy, that I was most pleasing to my Heavenly Father, that I love his laws, and that I am moved to tears when men don’t take heed to His Word. This section of verses floored me.

On top of that, a sweet brother came by and told me, “You’re an awesome servant.” I could not stop crying tears of joy. Those times that I was faithful in little things, my Heavenly Father definitely noticed and rejoiced over me with singing.

Sunday:
I was watching my nieces little cg animated film called, “The Princess and the Pauper.” Yes, I know that I'm not supossed to be into these types of films. I'm babysitting my nieces, and it may give me an edge, since this is programming for little girls, who become ladies later in life.

*A large portion has been omitted, but perhaps later it will shed light when certain events have come to pass.*

At the end of the film everyone is happy. Both the princess, and her twin sister “the pauper” marry two handsome good men. The princess marries a servant, and the pauper marries a king. The song is beautiful musically and lyrically as it says,

“…When you live your dream, you’ll find destiny, is written on your heart.”

This reminds me of a much greater love that my spiritual husband (Christ) has for me as his Bride and the dream of being with Him forever. He is both a servant, and a king, yet he chooses me.

“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”-Ecclesiastes 3:11

"This is the covenant I will make with the house of Israel after that time," declares the LORD. "I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people."-Jeremiah 31:33

God has always had eternity in mind, concerning me. You know what?-I believe that God can do what I think is impossible and then some. He doesn’t just give me enough to live on, he also gives me art and song and romance. Does His greatness know no bounds?

Thursday:
I’ve been “retracing” (pun intended) my teenage days, by taking up drawing again. I recently purchased a book entitled “The Complete Book of Drawing Techniques: A Professional Guide for the Artist.” It’s been helpful in the therapeutic sense for me. I read something today that nearly made me cry in public, something I wouldn’t do if I were forced to eat live rattle snakes.

“It really is time for a re-assessment of the eraser and its’ role in our work. Used effectively it can be one of the most positive tools at our disposal. But first we need to remove the idea that mistakes are always bad.”

I can not tell you how many times I’ve erased equation after equation from Math homework. It seems that there’s no end to the logic, and my brain just doesn’t get it. So, I have issues with erasers. But the real issue is my obsession with perfection in a fallen, and broken world. The book continues on this “no mistakes, no redemption” philosophy.

“Re-thinking is very much a part of the creative process and is evidenced in many works, particularly in drawings where the artists are working out their initial ideas and intentions.”

Both of these statements do wonders for my soul, and give me freedom from negative/frustrated thinking.